went to the doctor yesterday and the psychologist today; maybe i'll start making some progress. i was going to say i cried less today, but i cried the whole time i was at the psychologist and the whole time i was at the doctor. who am i kidding, i cried just as much as ever. i go to dad's tomorrow so that will be a couple of pretty easy days. sunday we're having a birthday party for him. he may not know because we forget to tell him things a lot so it might be a surprise party. this family needs to get together for a happy occasion.