went to the doctor yesterday and the psychologist today;  maybe i'll start making some progress.  i was going to say i cried less today, but i cried the whole time i was at the psychologist and the whole time i was at the doctor.   who am i kidding, i cried just as much as ever.  i go to dad's tomorrow so that will be a couple of pretty easy days.  sunday we're having a birthday party for him.  he may not know because we forget to tell him things a lot so it might be a surprise party.  this family needs to get together for a happy occasion.