Sunday, February 24, 2013
it's been awhile. i finally went to my doctor (who i love by the way) and she changed my ativan to something different. it really affects my balance and i go reeling around the house, so maybe that's how it works, trying to keep my balance keeps me from thinking of other things. seriously, i don't turn every thought into a reminiscence about catherine that makes me cry. a few days ago, my 27 year old nephew dies of a ruptured aneurysm in his head. he donated a lot of organs, visitation was last night and the funeral is today. just more grief to add to my pile. when will it stop. i just sit around thinking who's next.
Thursday, February 7, 2013
i am getting worse, not better. tomorrow we're going away for a week to babysit for my two other granddaughters and i can't imagine having a happy face. ever again in fact. i am now allowed to take three ativan a day but the one i took this morning did nothingl. i can't stop the sad thoughts so i cry and cry. somebody please help me. maybe i need to take all three of the ativan at once.