went to the doctor yesterday and the psychologist today;  maybe i'll start making some progress.  i was going to say i cried less today, but i cried the whole time i was at the psychologist and the whole time i was at the doctor.   who am i kidding, i cried just as much as ever.  i go to dad's tomorrow so that will be a couple of pretty easy days.  sunday we're having a birthday party for him.  he may not know because we forget to tell him things a lot so it might be a surprise party.  this family needs to get together for a happy occasion.

ok so i have an appt with a psychologist.  maybe she can fix me.  i have new medication that works pretty well for anxiety, i can tell when it's time to take more, i start crying.  the medication does have the side effect of messing with my equilibrium.  if i bend over to pick something up, i just keep going.  i kind of list to the right and have a lot of bumps and bruises.  but i can't stop taking them because they work, i just have to move around more carefully.  people keep asking if it's safe for me to drive.  well, i'm usually sitting down when i'm driving.  now if i have to get out and pull the car, that will be a problem. my worst times are bedtime and when i'm alone in the car driving;  ok, enough pity me for today....for right now anyway/